I can't remember when was the last time I blogged about something. I kind of sorry for my blog because I wasn't able to blog that often and even update or check my account. Well, this entry is not just for the sake of having an entry to blog but because I need to let my feelings out.
When I was in my last year in college, I wanted to drive my life into full speed. I wanted to rush things and graduate. But now I never thought I wouldn't like it. Not to the point that I'm running out of reasons to enjoy life. Of course I have lots even tons of reasons to enjoy. It is just being in the real world of life is very much exhausting than the world of being a student. I miss the books, notebooks, pens, pencils, school bags, blackboard, chalk, recess, teachers, classmates, crushes etc..
Looking for school to study is easy. Finding your effective ways to present your projects and assignments is easy. Meeting your professors/teachers and classmates is easy. You get nervous at times but after a day it'll be gone for sure. But in the real world, landing a job you want is not as easy as 123. Attending the interviews and looking for companies is not simple as ABC.
I know in time, in God's time, I'll be able to have the right job for me. But it has been 2 months since I graduated and some of my classmates and friends got their jobs already. I feel so frustrated and I pity myself. I feel like I am so pathetic being unemployed. But what am I thinking now is that, it's just only 2 months since I graduated and it's still pretty early. I don't need to loose hope. I just need to have a strong faith in God and of course in myself. But sometimes being positive isn't enough to build up my courage. Every time I get rejected by a company, I feel like my self esteem is getting lower and lower. But if I give up, who will be willing to stand up for me? That's my every day thinking. I always think that the best thing to do is to be optimistic. ALL THE TIME. With God's love and understanding, I know in time, in his own precious time, I'll have not just what I want but what I really deserve.
