BABY...

There's this girl I love so much that I hurt. I know I hurt her. Because I'm too harsh with the words I left. But it's not actually for her only and it's not really for her. Maybe she triggered me because of a certain tweet that made me so jealous. :(

I'm scared of loosing the people I value so much. One of them is this precious girl named "Sherine."

Before I went to my twitter account, I was pissed with my boyfriend because he often calls me baby lately which was my boyfriend and his ex's endearment. Ours is BABE. Everytime he texts me, sometimes he unconsciously calling me baby and I hate it.

Me and Sherine's endearment is BABY. And I read a tweet from her and she's calling her crush "BABY" which made me more pissed. Actually I'm used to it. That she's calling her crush BABY. But what triggered my jealousy over her was her posts that she was really happy with her other friends. I know this is some kind of pathetic-ness. But I got jealous, what will I do? I love her so much, as sister, bestfriend, girlfriend.

After that I tweeted "REALLY, I HATE "BABY"" and surely she read that and she got hurt I KNOW. She got mad and all. I want to talk to her but I'm scared. I don't know why. I know it's my fault. I know I was wrong. I want not to get jealous right away but I cannot stop it. :(

I miss her. I miss her more than I miss my boyfriend. I miss my baby. :( I MISS HER.