I am still fortunate.

I always feel that I am the unluckiest person in the world. My dad's gone, my mom left me, I don't have siblings, I often disappoint my family but last Saturday, October 13, everything about it changed. I am still fortunate. 


We had a feeding program at Pier 18, Vitas, Baseco Compound at Ulingan. The place was really dirty, seriously. Anywhere you go, you smell nothing but trash. Unwanted smells are everywhere, trashes are everywhere, mud are everywhere, sh*ts are everywhere. I felt unease when I was there. I may sound so "maarte" but I am just stating facts based on what I saw because I was there. When we finally reached the meeting place, I saw a lot of children. Children whose clothes are so dirty, feet are so black, hairs are messy and teeth are not clean. Upon seeing them, my heart just sunk. I love children so much. And seeing that situation of those children somehow made me think that, what if they can attend school? What if they can show what they can do? What if they have the talents and skills that our country can be really proud of? WHAT IF. 

When I was just standing on a corner, watching those kids enjoy the program that the organization (PROJECT PEARLS and ONE HEART PHILIPPINES) have prepared, a kid back hugged me. I was shocked. I held her arms and hug her back. I talked to her and when she smiled at me, I wanted to cry. The moment she hugged me, I felt like she was longing for affection. Affection they long to feel. Affection they deserve. Affection that are just for them. 

I am still fortunate. I wear clean clothes. I have shoes to wear. I live in a clean house and surroundings. I attended a good school. I have work. I am blessed. But in spite of all these things that I have, I'm still asking for more. I am still being selfish. My bad. Those kids? They were not asking for more but what they were asking for are just good life. Life worth to live. Love worth to keep. Laugh worth to give. That experience changed me, especially my viewpoint in life. We inspire them but they are not aware how much inspiration they give to us especially their smile despite of their situation. I thank God for letting me bring smile on their faces and made me feel that I can help even in small things that I can.

Some pictures from the event.