Dear Mommy,

First of all, I want to say sorry. Sorry because I know I've done a lot of wrong things which made your sisters and of course you disappointed of me. Sorry becuase I am such a stubborn kid. Sorry because I lie at times. Sorry because I am a bad girl. Sorry because this is me. I always make mistakes, I always make decisions that are not right, I always disappoint you and the people around me. Mommy, with all that I am deeply sorry.

But Mommy, I want you to know that because of all those things, I am now in the right path of my life. I've got realizations that changed me to be a better person. I was able to be with people who are good influence. I am able to show to other people that I can stand even after my deepest downfall. Mommy, now I am able to show to everyone that THIS IS ME. 

I know somehow, you can't be proud of me because you want me to be like you or you want me to be someone you can really be proud of. Honestly Mommy, I really want to be like you and I want you to be proud of me, really. I want to follow your footsteps but I wasn't able to simply because I am not you and I can't do things your way. I wasn't able to step my feet on where you have stepped in because Mom, I am not you. But Mom, I hope you can be proud of me somehow. Even just a little because it was me who decided to be in this place right now, to stand where I am standing. Mom, I may not be really like you but this is me and I hope you can be proud of me. I may not be like you or I may not be someone you want me to be, but Mom, I love the me I created.

I am stubborn not because I want you to get mad of me but because I want to live the life with no regrets. I want to live my life to the fullest. Mom, you left me with so much regrets in your heart and I don't want that to happen to me, so I hope you can understand me. I am not blaming you for leaving me. I am not blaming you anything that happened in my life. I am not blaming you Mom. Seriously and from the deepest part of my life, I am thankful that you are my Mom. I am inspired because you are my Mother. I've been a bad girl because I want to get your attention that I have my own ways of living my life. I lie not because I want you not to trust me but because I know you won't approve everything I decide for myself. I make mistakes not because I want but because I'm learning. 


Mom, I AM SORRY and THANK YOU VERY MUCH. These are just two things I want to tell you. I hope you can forgive me and you can accept my thanks. But most of all what I really want to tell you always and forever is, Mom, I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH. 


Happy Happy birthday Mom. I love you and I miss you so much. ♥