Smile of Love.

All I want for my dearest SHINee boys is REAL HAPPINESS.

    Now, I can say that they are really growing so fast. Not just physically but mentally and emotionally. I thought Onew will be the first to have a girlfriend among them since he is the eldest, but no. It was Kim Jonghyun. He has been dating with Shin Se Kyung which we all know is Jjong's ideal girl. To be honest, at first, I felt a little hurt because I was like "OMG ONE OF MY BOYS GOT A GIRL ALREADY." It didn't saddened me at all because I've never seen Jjong smile like that. His face was full of glow and you can feel the happiness in him. So after seeing his picture with Shin Se Kyung, I just said to myself, "Jjong is happy. Jjong is inlove. I have to be happy for him. I have to support them. I have to be with him."

     And now, here comes Minho. I think he started to fall in love.  The girl is EunSeo. She's pretty and Minho is her ideal guy as what she said. Like with Jjong, I've never seen such kind of smile with Minho's face. I felt like crying because I can feel his happiness. I can feel his heart that is full of JOY. Well, to be honest, unlike with Jjong, I never felt hurt with this. All I can feel is happiness for my boy, Minho. Gosh my dear dongsaeng. I am so happy for ya! ^^;; (I hope they'll go out together) ^^;;

    Here's the link wherein Minho made me teary eyed because I know how much happy he was on this video.

      Key, Onew, and Taemin. Gosh. I can't wait to see all of them fall in love. Especially my forever love, Taemin. I know I'll be very much jealous with the girl he'll be dating with but seeing him happy can take away all the negative feelings in me. Seeing all of them happy can make me VERY HAPPY.  That's a FACT. :)

<3

Just HAVE FAITH .

I hate being ALONE.

That's what I am scared about the most, being left alone.

I hate being rejected.

I hate walking in the mall by myself.

I hate watching my favorite movie alone.

I hate to be ALL ALONE.

Now.

Me? Physically, I AM ONLY ONE.

I AM ALONE.

I AM JUST WITH MYSELF.

ALL ALONE.

BUT

 

Life is fair. Life is really fair. 

I have no siblings.

I have no parents.

But still, life for me is fair.

Because

someone never made me feel ALONE.

And, I never felt alone. EVER.

Since the day I was born, 

SPIRITUALLY, I AM WITH SOMEONE.

Yesterday, he's with me.

Today, he's still with me.

Tomorrow, he'll be with me.

and

FOREVER, he will stay with me.

GOD is with me.

God is the best provider of our needs.

God is the best listener.

God will always stay with me.

God has all the time for me.

That's why he made me hate being alone. 

He made me hate sadness.

He made me hate loneliness.

Because in all my down moments,

he will always be there.

Make me smile.

Make me laugh.

Make me shine.

Super Show 3!

HAPPY. GLAD. OVERWHELMED. JOY. What else to describe my feelings yesterday? I am very very very happy. All I had was this kind of smile in my face for the whole day. Why? Because of Super Show 3. ^^


What about SS3? For your information, I think, I have the most strict auntie in the whole world. I am parent less. My parents passed away when I was a kid and my aunties became my parents. Now, I prepared myself for the upcoming Super Show 3 here in Manila. I saved money since the first day of classes but the amount of money I have now in my hands are still not enough for the ticket price I want to buy. I and my friends are going to avail the UPPERBOX A seat because that's all we can afford. When I was in the bus going to school, I was thinking of the words to say to my aunt because I will ask money from her. I only have 3,000 pesos and I still need 3,864 pesos. I fearlessly (because I know she might not allow me to go or she will not give me money) sent my aunt a message to ask money. I was really nervous while waiting for her reply. I crossed my fingers and kept on wishing that her reply will be in favor with me and after a while, I got a reply from her.

*DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANG*

I got her first reply. She was so shocked! Because the ticket price is a little expensive and I never asked that kind of amount from her before (except for school-related things). But I received her 2nd message and that made my day! She agreed! She will give me money that I need for SS3! GOSH! I AM SO HAPPY! I was wearing my smile all day even if it rained so hard yesterday and my shoes got wet. None of the negative things happened yesterday ruined my day. BECAUSE I AM HAPPY! REAL HAPPINESS. :)

THANK YOU LORD!

THANK YOU TITA ENING!

:)