Taemin and I

I downloaded Taemin's favorite Japanese song the day before yesterday. It was Gekkou by Chihiro Onitsuka. The title and the singer weren't familiar to me but I still downloaded it because everytime Taemin tells his favorite songs in his interviews, I used to listen to it and I get to like it too. It's not because it is Taemin's favorite but the song is indeed good. :)

Last night I listened to it while lying in bed before going to sleep and the moment I heard the introduction, I was shocked and I got up right away from lying. Seriously and honestly speaking, that was the song I am searching for for a very very long time! I swear! NO JOKE. I forgot where I heard the song but I am so sure that it was that song. The tune was stocked in my head and I am so certain that it was really the song I am searching for. I fell in love with Gekkou from the very first time I heard it but it was quite hard for me to know it and search for it because I don't have any idea with Japanese music back then. I mean, I'm not aware of the songs and the singers in Japan. And besides, I don't know where to start from searching because I only know anime and anime OSTs that time. I didn't expect and I never thought that Taemin will be the way for me to know the title and singer of this beautiful song which I really love to listen to. 

The moment I realized about this, I became emotional. I cried. I realized how Taemin and I are connected with each other. Fate always find ways for us. It may not be really meeting or being with each other in person/reality or to some it is a so-called 'FANTASY' but whatever it is, it feels so amazing. I believe everything that happens are meant to be. This may be some kind of fantasy but I am certain that I'm still in reality.

The first time I felt about our connection was when I bought my very first SHINee album, LUCIFER. I got Onew's photocard inside the version A of Lucifer. I was not disappointed, honestly but it would have been really better if I got Taemin's. I gave my photocard to Sheena, my twin soul, because I got freebies from buying the two versions and I got all 5 individual photocards of SHINee. But it wasn't the connection thing yet.

I went to school after that because I still have classes that time. I proudly showed my CDs with my non-KPOP friends. I always do that everytime I buy KPOP CDs because they are curious about it so I got used to it. But the moment I showed them my LUCIFER CDs, they joked around using it. I was worried because Lucifer CD is different with my other CDs because it's cover was a board paper. But my friends told me not to worry because they know how important those things to me. But my friend accidentally tore a part in my version A CD. I started crying. I don't know what to do. I was really problematic. I decided to go back in the store where I bought and asked if ever I could exchange it from another CD. Fortunately they allowed me to have it exchanged. That was so lucky and I'm really thankful with that saleslady. While browsing it and checking if there was no defect at all, there's still photocard inside and yes, it was Taemin. I was so surprised and very very happy. That time I thought that Taemin showed up because he doesn't want to see my cry and sad.

Next was when I was in my last year in college and I was doing my part in our research paper/thesis. I was about to breakdown and cry and lose hope but again, Taemin suddenly showed up. When I was typing my draft I don't know why I opened my tumblr account because I grounded myself for using social networking sites back then because I need to focus with my work and I don't usually open tumblr first. I always open twitter and facebook first and then tumblr. The very first post I saw was Taemin's edited picture with a quote. I swear I believed that it was destiny. The quote says: "Taemin taught me to be determined and set goals for myself to achieve." To some this may be so ridiculous because I am giving assumptions in such very simple and possible-to-anyone scenario. But it was destiny and it was meant to be. It feels so amazing. What if I didn't open my tumblr? What if I opened twitter first? It is the magic of love, my love.

Someday, I know and I believe we're going to meet. And when that time comes, I'll be the happiest person ever. There's nothing in this world that could be happier than meeting your destiny. We may not be destined to be with each other forever or live with each other forever, but we are destined to be invisibly together forever.