FRIENDSHIP.

What is FRIENDSHIP.

For me, it is a one of a kind relationship between different individuals wherein you learn to accept each and everyone's imperfections and love each other unconditionally.

WHO ARE MY BEST FRIENDS?

When I was in my Elementary years, I had a best friend. He is a guy but we are not the typical best friend like others know. It was just like for the sake of having someone to call as BEST FRIEND. That was so pathetic, right? I really long to have a BEST FRIEND, a REAL best friend. Someone who will accept me for who I am and for what I am. Until I reached high school. I was in my 3rd year when I finally had REAL BEST FRIENDS. They are the SMILEY. 

I believe that we are meant to met each other. Geraldine, Ruby Anne, Alexis, Mary Joyce, Manny Jane, Sheena, Beverly, Khristine and of course me. In our friendship, we experienced a lot of things. Happy, sad, scary, etc. We've been in a lot of fights and quarrel back then. Some of those were my faults. It is because I am not perfect. I am also human who commits mistakes at times. But I know I never fail to prove them that I'm changing and that changes were for the best. I will never forget the time I decided to leave SMILEY. Because I felt unloved and unaccepted. But I was wrong. Maybe because I'm still childish back then and I am not considering EVERYTHING around me and I am not thinking maturely. We had an open forum to discuss what's wrong with me. From that open forum, there was this one person who opened my mind in ACCEPTING THE IMPERFECTIONS OF A FRIEND. She is SHEENA. I thought she won't be able to befriend with me because honestly, I WAS SO SCARED with her before. Her face was so strict when I first saw her and she rarely speak. Until we became closer. :)

And then we entered college and we're still BEST OF FRIENDS, the SMILEY. Though we are not in the same schools but still our relationship stayed strong. I am so happy that I found people like them. I am so happy that I HAVE THEM. I couldn't ask for more for having them. 

Since we're not going in the same schools, we met different people again and those people became our friends. They met new friends and I met new friends as well. BUT still, SMILEY will always be SMILEY. The only people who are going in same school are Sheena, Alexis and Manny Jane. They were studying at Far Eastern University and from there they met Jeaniña or NINAY. They introduced NINAY to me and to the rest of SMILEY. Honestly, I Iike her. Even in our first meeting, I LIKED HER. We wanted to know more about each other. Since she is my BEST FRIENDS' friend, I ACCEPTED NINAY and treated her as my friend as well. But some of the SMILEY doesn't like her for some reasons (I think I don't have to say what are those). From the moment I knew about that, I kept on thinking why they hate her? WHY? Because I cannot find reasons to hate her or just dislike her. She is nice and very friendly. ^^

Until one day, an issue came out. Khristine posted something on her wall in Facebook saying that she will never accept NINAY and she will never be part of SMILEY. I was so shocked when I personally read the post. Honestly, I got disappointed. NINAY never said that she wanted to be part of SMILEY. What she wanted was to befriend with us. Why Ninay wanted that? Because NINAY's boyfriend is our high school friend, JAYMARC. And I think there's nothing wrong with that even if NINAY is not Jaymarc's girlfriend because at the very first place, NINAY is our BEST FRIEND's FRIEND. I believe WE SHOULD ACCEPT our FRIEND's FRIEND right? 

I know I am not a perfect friend and I will never be. But I can be the best friend one could ever have. I am not boasting myself, it is just I KNOW MYSELF BETTER and I know what are the things I can do for a FRIEND, REAL FRIEND.

 

Now, I have decided to leave SMILEY again and now it is for REAL (I will only explain my reason for leaving to SMILEY). I wanted to do this since 3rd year college (I'm now in my 4th year) but I really can't because I REALLY LOVE them.  But I HAVE TO DO THIS. It is really sad but there is one thing I want SMILEY to know, I may not be part of SMILEY anymore but THEY WILL ALWAYS BE MY FRIENDS and that is for sure. :)

To Geraldine, I LOVE YOU.

To Mary Joyce, I LOVE YOU.

To Manny Jane, I LOVE YOU.

To Khristine, I LOVE YOU.

To Beverly, I LOVE YOU.

To Ruby Anne, I LOVE YOU.

That may be only 3 words, but explains everything. :)

To Alexis, I LOVE YOU. I know I've hurt you. I know I just ruined our friendship because of the TRUST you gave me that I broke. But I want you to know that I DID that because I have reasons for doing it. It's you that I only owe an explanation. No one else. But when the time comes that I am able to tell you the reasons, I HOPE that YOU WILL OPEN YOUR MIND for accepting it. YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY FRIEND though for you I AM NOT. DELETING me as your friend in Facebook hurt me. That only means YOU JUST ERASED ME IN YOUR LIFE. Though it is only in FACEBOOK, it is a big thing to me. It is not only you who felt hurt. You hurt others too.

THEM without ME. :)

 

 

BUT.. 

 

 

 

 

 

I am still lucky because I still have this person in my life. Though she is only one, SHE IS MORE THAN ENOUGH TO ME. :)

 

 

SHEENA LIRAZAN BACULFO

She is my BEST FRIEND. MY FOREVER BEST FRIEND.

I will always remember what she told me,

"It's okay to have only few but true friends."

 (further explanation will be for SMILEY only)

>PERIOD<