Sudden sadness.

Last night before I sleep, I scanned SHINee's pictures on my phone. I don't know why but I suddenly found my tears falling and I was sad, very sad. 

I cried because I feel like I can't do anything for them any more. Aside from buying their albums, watch their live performances, wait for their comebacks, I don't know what else I can do for them or what I have done for them. But for sure I'll love them as long as I live and I will do whatever it takes to protect them. My SHINee, my happiness, my life. I may sound silly but I love them with all of me. In my every pain, my every sadness, my every hurt, they are my only cure in all these diseases in my heart. They make me happy and contented. They make me cry because of over happiness. I may be misunderstood by many but I don't care.

These total strangers in my life give me courage and inspiration more than others could give. Yes. Others may find this somehow ridiculous but this is the truth and I don't know why. This is really what I feel. *sigh* 

See how much SHINee boys have given me and yet I don't even feel like I'm giving enough. Why? :( I don't even know a lot of things about them. I don't know who they really are and where they come from. I may just know that Onew is the leader and Taemin is the Maknae. But still, I love SHINee, I truly love them. I thank God because I got to know them. I may not be able to give everything but I know, at least, somehow, I can give something. I may not be the bestest fan, but I can be their bestest anonymous friend. 

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